I am having a lot of problems in my life just now, same as a lot of people do.
I need a space where I can write down my thoughts, think things through and basically try to make sense of the crap that is going on in my life.
I have a lot of difficulty opening up to people, I have difficulty expressing myself verbally. It's easier for me to write my thoughts down and express myself through written word.
Typing is preferable to putting pen to paper because when I have written something down and it doesn't make sense it is easier to go back and correct it, to make it sound more how I want it to.
Why have the blog public? Because I have supportive friends that I rarely see and live a long way away. They are able to read this when they can. They have their own families and lives which are their priority. I need support but I don't need to be an emotional leech.
Comments are disabled throughout because I don't need twits telling me to stop moaning and to get a life. The purpose of this blog is not to moan, it's to make sense of the jumble of confusing thoughts and feelings that are constantly tumbling through my head and my heart. The purpose of doing that is to regain some control rather than feeling that my life is spiralling out of control away from me.
My friends know where I am and they know how to contact me.